Last month I was scrolling through my blog and I could see that my posts are a representation of what phase in life I am in. It was mind-blowing to discover that, you know! It just reminded me of how I have always been intertwined with my emotions. Growing up, writing was my way of venting my emotions thus my notebooks have always been my secrets keeper. But now I have this platform I can be open and vulnerable in hopes of encouraging and inspiring the young me’s out there, it’s dope!
My childhood was never all roses and unicorns I won’t even try to sugarcoat it. By the time I was twelve I had to take medication for ulcers and I understood what having anxiety felt like. All that was due to the crap happening around me and just having one outlet to deal with it all – my pen and paper. As a child, you are introduced to these fairy tales where there’s always a happy ending and you live happily ever after. But what happens when you don’t experience that? Well, let’s just say I’m still waiting for that kind of happily ever after… If it exists that is!
Life is hard and that sucks for sure. The only happily ever after I have experienced so far is trusting God and my journey; my experiences good and bad have been the foundation of the person I am today. And the most important thing is moving on! Life can hit you BAD AND HARD and when I say bad I mean pendulum back and forth kind of bad and you have a choice to either stay down, get back up, or just crawl in self-pity.
Personally, for the past few years I chose to just crawl.
We’ve all seen how babies are eager to walk. They learn to sit upright, crawl and the next thing they do is try holding onto things to stand and make steps. Welp, Not me! I was comfortably crawling. My definition of comfortably crawling is not living your full potential. Being able to walk but choosing to crawl because it is safe and even if you trip and fall no hard damage is done.
You know why I chose to crawl? Because I’m living in the past! I know if I stand up I’m going to fall. I have fallen over and over and over again that I don’t think I can handle another fall; so I decided to just crawl instead.
I have always loved jewelry so I started a small business but I’m not marketing my business at all, then there’s my blog I’d like to reach a bigger audience and work with brands, I’d like to have a full-time job, travel to Dubai, educate people on Mental Health and maybe start my masters in September 2019. Those are good dreams right? but how am I supposed to achieve them when I’m in my comfort zone crawling instead of taking the risk of baby steps and living my full potential!? I swear common sense isn’t common you guys.
Just as I mentioned in the beginning of this posts, my blog is a depiction of what’s happening in my life – so this is where I am at the moment. Taking my time to analyse and use my past experience as lessons not setbacks. It’s guaranteed I will fall but I am taking baby steps and ditching the victim mentality. Come take baby steps with me, I dare you!
Over To You…
What are some of the thing you feel you’d achieve if you lived to your full potential?
Thank you for reading.
With Love, Jade.